Sparrow - Can't Sleep lyrics

[Intro: Woman Speaking] I learned...How to be loved and taken care of Because I couldn't have gotten through the year without . . I...I learned how to be loved and taken care of . . [Verse: Sparrow] Yeah...You know, I don't have a video, a written letter sh**, I don't even have just one picture of us together It's as if we never even existed - Did it happen? Or was it all just in my head? It's disastrous I feel weaker than bent twigs - Just send my d**h! I hear their laughters and the jeers at my expense The punchline, I've become it cause I'm pleading to go back To find a chance to see you again I'd literally give everything I have And grief's gonna dispatch, judge, and sentence me I sense this one isn't giving me the pa** I need The jury is out on my soul And it's quick-pa**ing judgement on us both Sure to find revenge and avenge itself all at once With this hurt that mortifies It's like a big black hole, pilfering who is me 'Till existing is both the best and only option I see I hold my own love-torn insides in my grips Shredded into million short lives like some movie clips So view the best in me get ma**acred and chopped up Love - I swore it was the one of my life But screw it! Just slit, stab, and gash my flesh! If I gasp for oxygen just shove that sword On in to the left section of my chest But you better get all of it in there though So the handle's all that's left It's hollow and barren, so I can handle it I just gotta know for sure there's nothing left That could possibly allow another heart to prosper Just long enough o watch it all go for naught! f**! Nothing looks right! Something isn't right It just gets darker and darker Yeah, my inner shine's glow Where did I go? I don't know All I know is I'm not home The further from you The farther I go from my soul So I beg you - Don't let me go! If I slip I'll quickly plummet ‘Till I split bricks like Quickrete that was mis-mixed Been love stricken with so many mixed emotions Sent into an abyss so sick I think I'd fit beneath rock-bottom lows Shut the book and just let my dust settle as soot where it must And turn this urn up, bottom's up Spread instead of shed the salted tears I didn't cry Ashes to ashes; no more stresses sighed - Dust to dust My Pa**ion threw me right into the fire My love is gonna fight this though it isn't giving up Nothing to stop this drive Refs won't call a charge, so I step aside Couldn't stop it if I tried; plus I'm not gonna try I won't lie, I try for what inspires me - With you Sharing this life, and you might not see it like I do And that's just fine My optometrist barely sees my visions right My sights, I set I'm staring into the greener eyes on the other side The irises of your eyes The apple of mine and the love of my life Christ and five disciples will fail to vary my direction Might seem abusive to myself I grasp all that this risk is all mine Life's heist stole all I have known And I will not fail to remember it I give my word of truth to you I hand all I can hold, all to myself And if I miss out, it's my fault My rights, I know, I will not fail! I deserve this! I can't purchase what this is worth It's as priceless as our life on this Earth My yearn for this is surfacing, and I a**ure you this I will earn it, yes My cure to this hurt is when my lips and yours press I have pure love internally for you That will exist eternally - I'm serious as can be! You're all that's this man can dream But I can't dream because I can't sleep Yeah...You're all that I can dream But I can't dream...Cause I can't sleep All that I could dream, but I can't dream Cause I can't sleep