Soundtracks - WHEN I WAS OLDER by Billie Eilish lyrics

When I was older I was a sailor on an open sea But now I'm underwater And my skin is paler than it should ever be Hmm I'm on my back again Dreaming of a time and place Where you and I remain the best of friends Even after all this ends Can we pretend? I'm on my, I'm on my back again It's seeming more and more Like all we ever do is see how far it bends Before it breaks in half and then We bend it back again Guess I got caught in the middle of it Yes I've been taught, got a little of it In my blood, in my blood Memories burn like a forest fire Heavy rain turns any funeral pyre to mud In the flood When I was older I was a sailor on an open sea But now I'm underwater And my skin is paler than it should ever be I'm watching movies back to back in black and white, I never Seen anybody do it like I do it any better Been goin' over you, I'm overdue for new endeavors Nobody lonely like I'm lonely and I don't know whether You'd really like it in the limelight You'd sympathize with all the bad guys I'm still a victim in my own right But I'm the villain in my own eyes, yeah When I was older I was a sailor on an open sea