Sound of Rum - Best Intentions lyrics

We are a product of our times Our legacy of messiness of misdirected energies and self-obsessive tendencies But i'll waste no more time in wanting that can never be Those friendships numb to nothing now I hope that you remember me In kindness or at least in empathy, like i remember you I know that i am who i am for having been a friend to you I know now firsthand that regretting love will empty you Of all that makes you loving and of all that lovers pay attention to I've been here before, entangled, trying not to mention you When all my blood and guts are filled to bursting with the stench of you See I lose me in loving and I do things I never meant to do All my weakness is my weakness in an attempt to strengthen you Last night just like all other nights, I fell asleep and dreamt of you But you is not one person, not one version of a person Or a device enlisted in these rhymes to help me vent some raw emotion, no You is all the yous I ever loved in falsity All the yous I ever fell for in the darkness of this false city All the yous who had my truth and in return were false to me All the yous I had to lose so I could make the most of me All the yous whose secrets I still keep who are like ghosts to me Haunting me, every time i let someone get close to me All the yous i lie beside, whose cries seem like such boast to me Who naked came and naked left and squandered all my hopes in me Who call out that baddest, the most remote in me Resuscitate the vilest side and stifle all the growth in me You made me feel immortal but in secret made a joke of me [Hook] But whatevers come to pa** i hope you like me are sure That the love was always real and the intention always pure And yeah whatever people tell ya no they'll never love you more Its just i wish i known to love you right before and thats the score But every storm thats ever blown blows in me The world pitches and heaves and pulls my tides I wear the lonely strength that sorrow brings me but i woke this morning old and i realised My best friends don't know the weight of my contrition or the flames that make a furnace of my throat The relentless burning thrust of my ambition or the trust I bore and lost now so remote A tribe of enemies rise up against me and im staring them for faces but find masks Eyes that once looked sweetly gaze back empty and i cannot do the things of me they ask, stop asking! I must answer to my own looming potential It rears its fearsome head and it screams my name These callous bleeding fingers grip that pencil And I scrawl on scraps of paper: "i'm to blame, i'm to blame" I scrawl on scraps of paper: "i'm to blame" I know because you told me I'm to blame All that was, that is, all that will be, is heavy like the tears you waste on me Don't fall in love with me i will write about it When it's comes to nothing and you begin to doubt it ever happened I will mull it over, churn it out, bring the ocean to the drought You'll tell me its unhealthy and hurt me when you try to help me Then i will tell you that "I'm sorry" when a time for sorry is long deceased I will think of you when all the city longs for sleep I'll keep them up, screaming out the secrets i don't want to keep Call you up in tears knowing you don't want to speak and say Whatever's come to pa**, I hope that you like me are sure That the love was always real and the intention always pure And whatever people tell you they'll never love you more It's just i wish i learnt to love you right before