Sorority Noise - Second Letter From St. Julien lyrics

You say there's a god And you say you've got proofs Well I've lost friends to h**n So what's your god trying to prove? You say he's alive His spirit flows through your veins Well I guess my best friend Was just trying to help the spirit escape And if there's a god Do I make him proud? Put a smile on his face? My mother, she gave me a crucifix She said, "Pray to Anthony if you lose this" But how can I believe in god if he won't believe in me? I let my anxieties overwhelm me Tell me why I am blessed with this curse There is holes in my head that put holes in my chest It makes me feeling maybe I'd be better dead I wanna get over the feeling that I'll never be good enough And if there's a god Do I make him proud? Put a smile on her face? And if you're with god Am I making you proud By waking up each day? And if you're with god Well, I hope you're proud With a smile on your face And if you're with god Well, I hope you're proud With a smile on your face