Sorority Noise - Smoke & Felt lyrics

I was a sheltered kid But we hit each other with bats We kept our heads in helmets While constantly swatting gnats Two feelings you can recall: Grip tape against our legs And tossing orange felt balls cross-legged on carpet The truth is there was more: Marb lights and Lebanese food; The fuzz of an uncle's arm; Spilling soda in the living room There weren't promises It never felt like this If everyone belonged here, it shouldn't feel like this There weren't promises It never felt like this If everyone belonged here, it shouldn't feel like this The truth is we dropped it all Kept our fingers' tendons wrapped too loose above the curb And everyone saw it snap Your neighbor said it looked like something from the twilight zone Now we're driving two hours away With no tape player and a broken collar bone These are promises Now we feel like this You end up on so many pills They made promises Don't second guess that you see lightning Now we feel like this You end up on so many pills We both smelled rain Is this being held? These are promises I kept on watching We shouldn't feel like this You end up with nothing Is this being nothing? Why do we keep freaking out? You kept your arms around me Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me (I dipped my arm into the lake We saw your struggle Just stay calm) Why do we keep freaking out? You kept your arms around me Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me (I dipped my arm into the lake We saw your struggle Just stay calm) Why do we keep freaking out? You kept your arms around me Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me (I dipped my arm into the lake We saw your struggle Just stay calm)