Son, Ambulance - Billy Budd lyrics

You came by yourself, but you left in a train Following close to whatever is in front of you Rails lay in their beds from Boston to Maine And they trick themselves, dream about waking up So we fold like paper Into a desks top drawer, something I was writing Into a tunnels dark mouth, the boxes have disappeared And we laughed out loud for each one we never opened So now the poets can guess at what we might have had For all their loveliness, my page is just snow And I follow your footprints, fill buckets with tears With that hot water, I will make you tea Cause now you say that you're sick, but I think you're just bored with my jumbled words so inarticulate, your inattentiveness But I told you one time we were two twisted vines, green and inseparable That sturdy of a weave it just isn't possible So I will change my name, you can pretend you never knew me And we'll fill up our floors with the discarded clothes A skirt pulled up from under my bed, something I loved on you Can you tell by my face, because I think it shows? It is confusing here, feels like I am in a fog