Someday I - Suicide Prayer lyrics

Bad = Worse I lost movement I lost soul I lost Shiner Sweet fears of childhood washed away Left with wary eyes Comprehending "The fall", between resolution and absolution Dead set on living Through my eyes; You cheated me Is this the only way to feel alive? I've lost darkness d**h God And save the best for last: Evil Sweet fears turned into voluptuous shudders Burning eyes An ecstatic state between resolute and absolute Dead set on d**h Accompanied by moments of rapturous beauty that keeps me clinging to this ma** of atoms Dear God, strike me down Or blind me now and I'll release my soul to hell Will these tears of honey be devoured by insects? Will this weight of nothing - This crushing sadness - The only thing that let's me know I'm truly alive - Vanish like my sweet naive fears? Why did you make it this way?