Softheart - I Will Never Feel Like I Did In 2016 lyrics

Gotta say got a lot worse My eyes always looking tired now Back hurts from the posture Still don't even want to lie down Everything I do is awkward I can't even make the right sounds Tired of acting like I'm not sure I wish I was with you right now And I don't mean to {?} my head but it keeps controlling me I don't leave the house cause' I live in the place you were with me I changed out my room with the {?} Nothing worth I don't understand But they still act like they know me I would just blow my brains out But my mama love me I can't give her the pain no I really wish I was just a normal kid And not such a complication But I'ma say that's still not changed The more I get stuck in my ways The more I get why I'm a waste Why everybody throws me away I guess I'll just be, over here just me Best if I just go trust me Just wanna save you from me