Social Repose - I want to be happy. I don't think I can do this anymore lyrics

I want to be happy I want to be happy But how can I be happy If I don't really like me All that much Struggling to be relatable I feel so out of touch Do I give the people what they want Or is this just to much Well focusing on my happiness Can feel just like a crutch Cause it comes and goes but mostly goes When i'm craving human touch But richie you should smile more Watch your health decline, it's such a bore Stop complaining they don't watch anymore When you're the one that closed that door Keep playing the victim you selfish who*e You're an evil man down to your core And your flaws are impossible to ignore When all that pain is sold to those who use To adore you She can steal my canvas altogether Paint her picture in the center But those feelings cannot linger When the empress is my mother, still Can you play another cover Can you sing my favorite song Can you pander for another couple minutes This feels wrong Can we keep things on the surface level And stop looking so disheveled Your peers are watching and they've decided You're a sh*tty role model I'd say I didn't care but I do I don't think I can do this I don't know if I can do this anymore And I'm messed up but good god is this what you bargained for? How much blood is enough for you? I want to be happy I want to be happy But how can I can happy If I don't really like me All that much