Social Repose - Either My Friends Are Fake Or I'm The Problem lyrics

Call it what you want Maybe it's bad luck I've been waiting for awhile now It's hard not to feel stuck If all these people surround me Why do I feel so alone I only rent out this space But im searching for a home So many people say I've got a heart of stone I pinched off all the arteries Im reeping what ive sewn It was no mistake when I pushed them all away And those that remain hold a suble distain But I didn't give them much of a choice Nobody wants to be with a negative voice So be happy be happy be happy they said I grew angry grew angry grewy angry instead I hate you all for leaving When I needed you the most My veins grew cold When I was treated like a ghost I convinced myself they did me wrong But later I found it might have been me all along Cause like the dead flowers sitting on my window pane I took all that water and poured it down the drain So was it me or was it them? It was probably me