Social Club Misfits - Martyrs lyrics

[Hook: Martymar] Losin' my life I'll be going on my own Leavin' everything I know Losin' my life, losin' my life, losin' my life I'll be going on my own Martyr! Losin' my life, losin' my life, losin' my life [Verse 1: Martymar] I just wanna know when it all come together, together I just wanna why you couldn't find somebody better Guess I'm the man for the job And I wanna tell my family I love 'em, but I don't really see them enough It's gettin' real crazy, I just wanna go back home And my sister got engaged on Instagram and I didn't even know I'm sick and tired of watchin' my entire family grow up in a phone Her friend text me, "Where were you at? Yeah, we didn't even know" And is this the life that I signed up for? Is it worth it? Oh yeah, yeah, it's worth it When they don't have to grow up like us, yeah, that's a blessin' And I don't wanna see them go through hell when they could be in heaven, heaven [Hook] [Verse 2: F.E.R.N] I'm in the skylight I guess it's what my mean by the high life Went to Vegas, didn't care about the nightlife k**in' these shows and flyin' right back to my wife Back on the ground, back on the grind Song gotta write, I can't keep 'em inside Songs that we're makin', not only for ratin' Cause honestly my fam' can't eat your likes What should I do? What should I say? I asked the Father, He told me, "Keep writing" Said, "Fern, in this life with this talent I gave you You gon' lead many to me, that's a promise" If we're being honest, I haven't been perfect But Lord you always been there when I needed you I been through hell and high water Cause it's easy to let you down, but you love me through You tell me I'm your son How did I deserve such grace? Me, I sold c**aine that would numb your brain to the point you say, "How much blow you take?" Fern bruh, that's even enough with the drug talk That's for those still stuck in the drug walk Feelin' distant that to the world cut off Here's a song just for you to help you go on [Hook]