SMKA - Reflection lyrics

[Verse 1] Every night up, far away from sleeping/ Something bothering my being, a part of me is being/ Devouring my thoughts, consumes my art like a museum/ Blind to what you never knew, maybe its time I let you see in/ On the way to my heaven I'm dodging demons/ That seem to have been with me since I have been on D sh**/ (sh**) That's since a child or whatever/ Since a child I have learned that I should smile through whatever/ Extinguished candles on a cake don't mean a wish is made/ Or wishing well, I wish you well when you skipping change/ Its hard to know if you are working hard enough/ When you ain't sure if ya own pops give a flying f**/ (what) Tryna ruin me as I'm blooming/ Like stepping on flower during spring showers/ And though we've made up that sh** has stuck with me/ Staring at my emotions as they trouble me/ This is just reflection [Hook] Will everything be alright/ Will everything be alright/ This is just reflection/ Will everything be alright/ Will everything be alright/ This is just reflection/ [Verse 2] Torturing myself with old memories/ Or were they nightmares seeing I live a dream/ I remember breaking down thinking I can't take it now/ Why the hell is all of this happening to me/ I was just young, dumb and hopeful/ Banking on the unsure while being boastful/ I thought I lost it all a few years back/ About the same time that I got my tears back/ Cuz lord knows that I hadnt cried since the year my brother died/ Emotions, I couldn't feel that/ I felt like my world had gone up in flames/ Til I woke to tomorrow and made sense of this change/ I ain't expressing my misery for sympathy/ This is to identify, see what you could live to be/ Hear the beauty in my lines, audio caligraphy/ Truth got you feeling like you mirror me/ This is just reflection/ [Hook]