Sleep Comes After d**h - The Fall lyrics

I'm trying to find hope But I know that I'm in hell This fire keeps me warm Or burns me alive, I can't tell Can't see to break away Ever since that day Something about this place isn't the same All the guilt and anxiety I wish you could see the pain you've caused Everyday I say just take me away Even when I'm alright you're not there to see Trapped in my own ways Drugged out and a bottle deep And I can't see to break free So is this where it ends? The final chapter of my destiny Will this mean something When everything ends When everything ends Fighting for a day of change If only you saw what you put me through I've been living in agony I'm losing my mind again I'm too afraid to sleep Drown myself in this liquor Wondering what these pills do So is this where it ends? The final chapter of my destiny Will this mean something When everything ends When everything ends The final chapter of my destiny When it all ends I'm spiraling down a path of no return Can I save myself or will I fall? I picked my poison I watch the lights bleed into the sky I need to heal and forget the past If I refuse I'll die slower I'll always lose in the end One final bet One last high I'm blessed with a curse I fight in my own head I think that my body knows that I'm helpless That my only hope is a lie That I'll chase my shadow until I die