Slechtvalk - Forsaken lyrics

My mind is filled with visions of d**h* I've abandoned them to their doom I've fled the battlefield at the sign of defeat What will become of me? We've walked into a trap, blinded by our pride All the brothers I have known died at my side And now I hide I don't know whom I fear most Our enemy, or my father the King I dare not face him again What will become of me? Too lost in my own sorrow I didn't notice the changing surroundings Can't remember how I got here, I think I have lost my way I have been led astray from the path that I was following The sorry state I am in, it feels so unreal I fear that the final victory will not be mine This burden causes my feet to stumble Like I am walking to my grave I wonder if I'll ever find my way back home again? Will I live to see my children become better men? The bitter tears I've shed have clouded my vision All I see is darkness and d**h on the path that lies before me I would cut out my eyes if that would make it all go away But I think this sorrow is mine to bear until the day I die Forsaken in this hostile land Broken to the core This sorrow is mine Until the day I die! I've long searched for d**h, but couldn't find it, save by my own hand But my pride stays my hand, I will go on as long as I can Though my heart yearns for hope, I'm blinded by my stubbornness I fail to see my own path leads to emptiness Torn by guilt, broken to the core, don't I deserve more? I should have followed your rule, oh father, I feel like a fool