Ski Beatz - Going Numb lyrics

[Verse 1] Uh, we all met at the emergency room Putting in a call to big sis that an emergency looms Consider this a courtesy I certainly groomed Not to freak out, but momma needs surgery soon I'm at the front desk, digging through her purse Tryna find a medical card, talking to this male nurse And what prevails worse, is when this dude leaned over and asks "How much do you charge to sell a verse?" I almost lost it, I'm tryna fight my tears This n***a on the computer googling Locksmith Blasting my youtube battles off Should I slap this n***a or should I laugh it off But that's the nonsense I deal with Being halfway famous coping with real sh** But I learned about it real quick To this day I never feel sh**! [Hook] I feel I'm going numb What have I become? How do I survive? Look at what I've done? Look at all the pain and it's only just begun I'm tryna find myself and there's nowhere to run I think I'm going numb What have I become? Look at what I've done Look at all the pain and it's only just begun [Verse 2] Uh, and now i'm gettin' inpatient Pissed off cause we never should of been waiting I mean its hospital policy When it's life or d**h that person becomes an Inn patient But we still inside of the ER Right next to dope fiends receiving CPR And these doctors is being retards This close to d**h and they treating with dis-regard But that's a part of life challenges Tryna figure this out and how I manage this Swinging my fist into they calluses I wrote this verse to the beats of your dialysis And now it's just your face as an imagery Remember me as your last son eventually We all bound to meet you up there Though I feel it's not fair, I find peace in your memory [Hook] I feel I'm going numb What have I become? How do I survive? Look at what I've done? Look at all the pain and it's only just begun I'm tryna find myself and there's nowhere to run I think I'm going numb What have I become? Look at what I've done Look at all the pain and it's only just begun