Sirius - Recrudescence lyrics

My life began when you found me dead beneath my solitude Unburied me, taught me how to breathe and so I followed you Felt like a lucid dream, a simple little hollow truth It all seemed too good to be true until you got me to believe in you Got me through and kissed all my bruises Your gentle lips filled my wounds with bliss You reminded me how to smile In return I gave you my frozen heart That I once promised to protect the moment it fell apart But in response you rejected, because you knew it was cold I drowned as you released it out of your angelic hold You flew away without a scent I waited in hopes for your return Until I grew impatient with common sense Eventually I ran in pursuit to catch a glimpse of you For I could cope with my fractured heart that is sick and blue You turned me into a zombie desperately searching for a life Don't know what's wrong with me; I'm losing all my might Step by step until I began to bleed Night by night as pandered deep into a horrific dream Walking half asleep, I slipped off the edge and failed fly with these shattered wings I closed my eyes, bit my lower lips, and wished for d**h You heard my silence, dove into the depths, and saved me once again I took a breath, opened my eyes, and wondered if this was heaven But it was only serotonin We slept side by side as before You held my broken ribs close I melted as you caressed my skull When I awoke you fluttered away once more I'll never forget your voluptuous wings You left me one thing, a note in blood to be sung. It said “Something's aren't meant to be. Cut your heartstrings And you'll spread your wings eventually.” *echo* So here I am Just another scapegoat singing an angel's melody Aiming to end the regret in me Painting a way to cope with memories Composing her hopes and dreams till I'm dead and free I've woken up I'm done bleeding from your silver tongue You've used me like a loaded gun Shot me through your blood as an escape from the corroding sun You're atrocious Your black lips felt like shattered wishes Caustic from the ashes of burning dried rose bushes You ravaged my wrist when I failed to catch your thousand blown kisses We walked, laughed, and held hands on paths where moths danced against the wind I once thought you were different But I was dead wrong I should of never opened my palms for you I'll keep my fist closed tight, bite my lower lip till its rived, switch the lock of my door this night You're a demonic witch I've angelized You stumble onto me when you're drunk From hearts you've riddled with lies Vomiting out their blood I almost drowned in the flood that spewed out of your eyes I've seen you flutter around fallen soldiers Enchanting them with your masked ambrosia Until they're hypnotized and you decide to take a bite from their shoulders Like a vampiric vulture I'm caught between the boulders of your mistakes I've had enough of your torture You modified the promises we made I've crossed my heart for you You tell me to toss it to the frozen curb When you're hiding who you are behind another face But now I've seen the truth You're uncomfortable in your own skin No wonder why you carved the body you're imprisoned in Now It's over I can see clearly through your maze You're just a who*e who burns flesh Until it fades I preserved this mess long enough I quit being a pawn to your game You can have my tragic turn Instead you chose to waste your blood down my drain My lesson has been learned. I'm never falling for it again I rather walk alone under the rain You're no longer a part of my concern Your innocence has decayed I don't care if you get what you rightfully deserve I'm moving on to another page I won't be there next time you slit right through your nerves I'm going to soothe my palms to a new day I've broken free from your curse This is my goodbye to your archaic ways