Silence - The Moment After the Moment (Interregnum freestyle) lyrics

And just like that the moments over Some good old closure for the soul told in cold disclosure Been rolling boulders up the incline of this roller coaster f** I need a drink just to think, I was almost sober Who can be sober in times like this Put whatever I find inside my spliff and dive right in Got the target in my cross hairs and my eye sight fixed But, failed to pull the trigger for fear that I might miss I believe that doubt will leave and reappear I couldn't see it clear my eyes were blinded by the streak and tears It ain't the gravity of reality its my dreams I fear I know they got a life of their own and they're gonna leave me here I'm still in the same place I have been Is this the part where I'm supposed to try again? You have no clue the state of self-pity my mind is in The saddest song played on the worlds smallest violin So many things changed in an eye blink Suspended somewhere inside of time's high jinks Gettin' chastised by my shrink, opinions are like a**holes so the things that I think just might stink I'ma need something just to get me higher Hard to live and let fly when you got d**h inside ya I mean it was all good just seconds prior But, now the bridge is smoking and I don't know how I set the fire I guess this is just an interval I'm gonna need a little pull to get me through these visuals Can't take a fresh step when your ?? full Liver full of liquor and it's pitiful take pity on an imbecile ?? to the filthy sh**ty pool, miserable, little fool commiserating with the haters and the cynical Watching these sins spin centripetal, reciprocal Of a prickled ?? reaching a pinnacle so pivotal This is the moment that you exhale The ?? scale it manifest can make a dead whale Carved a red X in my flesh for every test failed Chasing after my breath so I set sail on d**h's trail This is the time between then and later This is my truth ventilating on a respirator I sense a overdue do to my excessive nature The only respite for the wretched is in a bed of haters The hurt and the pain disturbing my brain Watching all the work that I claim, start to circle through the drain I guess the words would be personal shame perfect exchange Inadvertently let my worth burn into flames The more time, I'm more inclined to damage it sh**, even these warning signs are half of this I saw that picture and I thought I had a grip Watch the light bend through my lens but right then it vanishes I've never seen such light ahead I didn't know my dreams were in high demand If you wanna hide your cam But they're all you heard from the little lying man, turned out to be a giant scam I used these burning bridges to warm my heart Learning how to fall apart is all a nod The walls are marked with claw marks and small remarks that say "hey, sometimes its over before it starts"