Walking in a deep November can't look back and don't remember how I ever ended up this way the darkness gently swallows me and I walk alone who can say where everything went wrong I felt so in control and strong but that was then... not here and now never thought the tide would turn on me this way and I don't want to feel like this I don't want to feel like this all my life I've looked up at the stars now I'm reaching for the ground crying soul crying soul I'm crying wish I could confide in someone for a while just hide in someone else, but know it's up to me this time the darkness gently swallows me and I walk alone and I don't want to feel like this now I knw how real this is all my life I've looked up at the stars now I'm reaching for the ground crying soul crying soul I'm crying