Shun - Lost lyrics

As I'm walking out the f**ing house/ Look around and see my neighbor Puffin that loud/ Pa**ed the blunt but I pa**ed it cuz it ain't my style/ Im too different to ever think that id Fit the crowd/ Flying in the clouds, wrap me in these f**ing shrouds/ Ever since I was a child always wanted to be wild/ Now I realize all the lies that I couldn't tell/ Never be that cool kid, what goes around comes around/ But to me that's bullsh**, not to mention it's useless/ To top it off, I'm not involved, I'm holding on to them blueprints/ I'm falling off, not not at all, fake smiles are like bullets/ Penetrates my soul, all this hate that I hold/ Got me losing control, not amusing I know/ But f** making money if I'm losing my soul/ Man I'm losing myself, all this music I shelf/ All because it won't sell, how the f** im goin tell/ All these kids to chase their dreams, if I'm chasing all the wealth/ Got me feeling like a fiend man I really need some help/ If I don't believe in god does it mean I'm goin to hell/ If I don't believe in me does it mean I need some help/ Need some help Hook: f** all this bullsh**, lost in my mind And some times I feel useless/ Hand on my gun best believe I'm goin pull it/ Lost in this world man i really am Clueless/ (2X) Gripping on this f**ing pen/ Writing rhyme after rhyme but ain't making sense/ I'm feeling tense, maybe I should go lay down and rest/ Or maybe I should go k** em all leave with no regrets/ I lost mind, but inside, I feel all the mess/ I wanna die but can't lie, it's just all the stress/ Building up wut the f** this is how gets/ Sometimes I find that my life is all a mess/ (HOOK)