Shock Therapy - I'm So Sick lyrics

There is a prison everywhere I take myself No more losing anything I never had I've just begun to deal with living without recourse And I will pay for what the power did to me Sitting in a little room the walls cave in Nothing more to think about, now I'm gone Does it really matter what kind of d** I took? The last thought I had was something I chose to forget I'm so sick I make up friends, I talk to myself, Im so alone It's really not like being here at all I'm so sick I cut myself, I shoot up d**, I have two names It's really not like being here at all I'm so sick I cry at night, I wet my pants, I drink too much It's really not like being here at all I'm so sick I hate myself, I swallow pills, I think I'm god It's really not like being here at all k** the thought don't ever leave me by myself The little things I like to think of come to life I'm through with all the lying when I talk to myself I don't ever want to be this way again Living in a world where no one talks to me Move your mouth, I don't understand a word you say I think you're trying to tell me that I'm k**ing myself But you don't know I'll live til the end of time