Shock Therapy - Non-Person lyrics

Lately i have not felt that alter-ego i know To know my mind is slipping makes me feel so alone And i could swear i just saw the lights of that idiot growing dim When i approach these thoughts it feels like im committing a sin Its a sin sin sin sin How can my being here mean nothing at all? (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) Why do you look at me like im not here? (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) Dont say you have words that will make me feel so good Dont say you care i dont care for your words I am the reason that i am feeling so confused And i am at fault when i am being abused It hurts it hurts it hurts How can my being here mean nothing at all? (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) Why do you look at me like im not here? (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) Are you just hoping that i will just go away? (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) Youll miss me if you cant ignore me anymore (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) I was ignored all the way to my awakening And although im so very very young i feel so very very old Part of me is screaming that this me is not really me I had to pay for my fall with these invisible scars And im falling im falling im How can my being here mean nothing at all? (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) Why do you look at me like im not here? (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) Are you just hoping that i will just go away? (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do) Youll miss me if you cant ignore me anymore (a non-person should not have to care as much as i do)