Shock Therapy - I Never Asked for This lyrics

So when theres no more to do Ive grown up to be that i am A fine line between then and now Am i really grown up now? If theres no more to be Be please me let me be Cannot think my way out So what is there to think? Maybe i will fade Maybe i can fade I will never fade I can only exist No will to go on No one to go on I must be grown up I must be grown up I must be grown up I must be grown up Living on the edge Almost falling off If i fall will i catch me? Thinking of a better time My lifetime slips away I am almost grown up And now theres no more to de My dreams are going nowhere Lifetime is all used up Better times are straight ahead But i cant seem to reach First ill have to die Just to be a better fool I have to close my eyes Then maybe i will fade Maybe i can fade No, i will never fade I can only exist I never asked for this I never asked for this Why is it this way?