Shiki (TMNS) - Paradoxical Intervention lyrics

[Verse 1: Shiki] I been on this music grind for a while Kept it down for my imoutos Cultivated my style Tell people I'm satisfied really I'm in denial The person I turly wanna be to wicked and vile Man I ya'll hope you're listening now Cause ya'll 'bout to get that real sh** No hold bared, no censoring like raw dogging your lil' sis That's implications of felony These expectation weighing me down Meanwhile I'm my woes beneath music These sounds keep me sane, but is that really something new Succumbing to depression in attempts to find the truth Need imouto-chans kiss that help me out this dark abyss As I went to slit my wrist someone they came and told me this [Chorus: NZY Marcus] I'm positive the sun will shine, tomorrow baby You never know what the future holds or throws us You make me shine when the lights out I can see the path that I mapped out You picked me up when I was down and I thank you for it What would I do without you (x2) [Verse 2: Shiki] What would I do without my fans What would I do without my love What would I do without my faith in the almighty god thats up above Looking down on a siscon sinning Still I'm blessed man [?] my life's mission is to do something different, and to be someone different Frequently attack my faith In the eyes of my peers, embedded hate I'm great every night, but my past mistakes If I could take a knife to my f**ing face But I don't want ot be declined the perly gates Ain't that a b**h Swear depression k**s me every night I'm brought back everyday like Lazarus And that's cancerous to my soul sh** I'm barley over twenty years old Still this like has lead me to misanthropy Worlds expectations like canopies looming over me Too high to reach Standards obscured, can not meet Just see leechers on my twitter feed Never helpful in my time of need Drop that song [?] k** me n***as say we want more of this Well this is it, not so glamorous Just the ideals of a misanthropist And that's crazy sh** I don't let it out Keep it positive, ya'll see the doubt [?] just bleed it out MNS don't know about all the pain within this n***a How my heart has been disfigured How my positive demeanor has been withered down to a sliver By these b**hes, by these n***as All I want my little sister She said I been looking sicker I looked back and told her [Chorus]