Shawn Kemp - Stoop Lights lyrics

[Verse 1] I don't got hate for myself, I got nothing to say to me I spend every day with me I'm tired, I need an escape It's hard to relate to me Straight out the bottle, no chasing it Look at my eyes, I'm a space cadet Just a matter of time, I'm embracing d**h Dead pool, you should place a bet I'm in the bowels of war But I feel no stress when I let it pour But it all come back when I can't run back Anything that even happened the night before Always gonna fall on the sharpest sword Always gonna sleep on the hardest floor You can still see light in the darkest corner But you still feel lost when it's unexplored So I'mma see black until my eyes adjust Till my time is up, till my mind is f**ed Limp around town on the Irish crutch With a belly full of whisky and self-disgust Peekin' at my own dead body through splayed hands As I grunt and I drool like a caveman f**ed up, I'm a fool With a room with a view of a wasteland [Hook] Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong [Verse 2] Puke in my mouth, I got used to the flavor Face on the porcelain, photo engraver Memories fade and they float in the air Like dusk casting shadows and sodium vapor Waking up in situations Feeling like I'm living in suspended animation Guess I'm still sober on occasion That's enough for me to rationalize inebriation I told you I ain't right, you knew it going in Just shut the f** up if you wanna be a friend I don't want to stretch you more than you extend I don't want to spit in the hand you lend I did it to myself, I get what I deserve Thoughts in my head, feel like a raw nerve I'm lookin' for an answer, I don't want to hurt but I just want to sleep when I'm tired of earth [Hook] Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong [Outro] Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong