Shai Hulud - This Wake I Myself Have Stirred (Chad Gilbert - First demo / 4 Track Recording - 1996) lyrics

I kid myself! Bring it on! Afraid to turn But I did and met no maker at all Only instead, reflections of a rippled self I may at last see myself as good In a neutral pond unbiased and real Depicting only what is true (what is true) A distortion my hand has forced I have created the wake I may at last see myself as good Paint a false, paint a false scenario (scenario) My life has been a breach of contract and faith I kid myself. I kid myself. I kid myself Moving through self degradation I turn to you for appreciation So help me to help myself So help me to love myself