Sha Stimuli - Natural Causes lyrics

See I know how it feels to wake up f**ed up Pockets broke as hell, drinking smoking L's Got these O's to sell, got these stories to tell I can't control myself I don't need no one else And I don't feel to well I think it's a phase God, I feel old as hell I be forgetting my age I live for the day I look for tomorrow I'm feeling the pain I mix it with sorrow Picture the horror my horoscope is pure bullsh** It just be tearing my ego, feels like it keeps saying Cancer and I swear I'm a Leo I shoot like a Sagittarius float like an Aquarius Dying is like the scariest feeling I stare at the ceiling And think about the life after this life that I'm living All the sins I committed praying that there forgiven All the sh** I did I wish that I didn't The verses I spitted the b**h's I hit the doe I was getting I'm sorry man I close my eyes and pray to touch the sky wherever I'm at I never take the day for granted because I no better than that I understand that life is something that you can never get back If sleep is the cousin of d**h I guess his nephews a nap You no I stopped taking O's close to 8 years ago I be awake 24 hours straight and when I dose I be shaking and racing it feels like I'm sinking Mutha fu*k sleep I don't even like blinking I can't stop drinking it washes my fears And I no what ya'll thinking, this n***as scared! Nah! I cherished every second and I step with heavy weapons And I heard of hell and heaven but I don't know where I'm going Please forgive me while I'm talking I don't know if I'm flowing I'm really venting on a track see this is deep what I'm throwing I no it sounds like I'm babbling but look how I'm raping I want to no what's after platinum, god please tell me what happens I'm scared Just understand I wake up with this sick feeling deep inside of my mind It makes me feel I'd go insane if I didn't write it in rhymes It's like final destination where everything is a sign I walk the streets like everything's fine, but I'm not I stay with two Glocks ever since them n***as shot 2Pac The first time that's why I always try to kick my worst rhymes Because the best die young see them d**h signs come My writings are so ill it makes my whole left sides num Damn look where I'm from Brooklyn blocks are like imprisonment Now I no why Biggie used to tote Glocks to christenings And envision your grave plot and people not visiting Stimuli was just here and anit nobody missing him Moms crying over the casket screaming ba*tard My friends saying it anit that bad sounding sarcastic d**h is kind of pleasant, there's questions nobody's asking When, where, how I don't want to die