Senses Fail - Lifeboats lyrics

I just want to feel alive. And love myself from the in and the outside. Cause every time that I start to feel whole, I knock myself on the ground because it's all that I've known Just like the streets burn a hole through your shoe. My soul has been worn out too, I'm 25 and I still don't fit in Directionless, like a blind man painting Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this. The lifeboats are leaving with or without me. What's the point of falling in love? If I don't love myself. What's the point of being alive if all I want is out. So I thought that it only feels right To make the decisions that endanger my life Late late at night under black and blue moons. I question in the reasons that I self-abuse. I'm so pathetic. It makes me sick. I'm a fingerless pianist. I see reflections. I clench my fists. I'm a violin without the strings. Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this. The lifeboats are leaving with or without me. What's the point of falling in love? If I don't love myself. What's the point of being alive if all I want is out. There is no love. There's only this: Just lust and lies, and selfishness. A black hole where the sun once was. I'm never falling back in love. 'Cause it has never been enough. Ever since I was a young boy I've been alone Now that I've become a man, the feeling's grown. The therapy and through the pills, I can't let go. But what about the f**in' fact: I'm still alone. What do you do when you got nothing left? Give up! Give up! And hope for the best! I fell into the ocean eye and I feel sick Waiting on a nameless rescue ship. What do you do when you got nothing left? Give up! Give up! And hope for the best! I fell into the ocean eye and I feel sick Waiting on a nameless rescue ship. Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this. The lifeboats are leaving with or without me. What's the point of falling in love? If I don't love myself. What's the point of being alive if all I want is out