Senser - Stubborn lyrics

I'm lost, I'm lost, isolated, I'm drifting, I'm sifting through the sand of my motherland now I pay the cost Exposed to the rays of the heat that are burning down my back I'm crawling, then falling on my knees but no-one hears my pleas. I lie with the demons coming outta the sandstone, vultures strip my bones and now I'm conscious but yet I'm all alone and all the sh** I've been fearing is now appearing Yes the air is screaming but I'm not dreaming, no. Not dreaming now. No dreaming now. And after torniquet tightens on vein then I begin again. Retinas burn from the glare on the wing of a plane Now without thinking I respond, first comes to seal the bond with myself and then further beyond. The air, dry, breeds clear thoughts, a level head. I'll be no use to my loved ones when I'm dead so I pa** the time learning, planning, a**imilating till I excel and I can tell that these mountains are not a cage but a gauge of all the unseen majesty they will always be part of me. And though I trusted and was lied to by my own I bear no grudge and I carry no millstone. No, I carry nothing. f**ed over in a small pressurized cabin, a wound is a safe place to crawl. A warm place, would I throw it all away? End it all? The pain is so reliable. What do I remember? Old words. I learn new words, absorb, explore. Fall down in the dust and smell the rain, metallic. When I fall I will stand up again, stubborn boy, disease pa**es through me like spirits. When I break I will heal and when I fall I will stand up again.