Self Delusion - I Had to k** All I Loved lyrics

I'm alone that's my weighty pain in my bed a place I'll never share truly sick I wander round the edge I sink in doubt with every word I waste my jail my joy when jealousy hits me should I k** all the friends I've got? I've never loved for 30 years when your happiness hurts me I don't mind cause I've found a way in my room I'm the only king I feel ashamed of falling in love with you I'll remind you in my drunkest dream my jail my joy when jealousy hits me I could shot all the friends I've got? I've been ill for 30 years when your happiness hurts me should I k** all the friends I've got? I've never loved for 30 years when your happiness hurts me