Secrets - The Ascent lyrics

I hate this monster inside me My body's breaking down I'm alone and I cant breathe You wouldn't understand, no chance Cause I feel so f**ing dead Take the last drink, the bottle's gone Washed down my throat, I'm full, but empty Guess I'm not the man that I wanna be The bar's my only friend, and it's k**ing me I'm not losing this fight, oh wait, I guess I just lost it last night Guess I'm not the man that I wanna be The bar's my only friend and it's k**ing me Frail boy with a shallow mind I'm not quite sure that I'm the type of guy You should be hanging around I tend to let people down This is the last time getting high Promises sound just like last night I don't know anything anymore Help me regain control I've been dependent for so long I need to leave I've been dependent for so long I need to live (again) Take the last drink, the bottle's gone Washed down my throat, I'm full, but empty Guess I'm not the man that I wanna be The bar's my only friend, and it's k**ing me I'm not losing this fight, oh wait, I guess I just lost it last night Guess I'm not the man that I wanna be The bar's my only friend and it's k**ing me I'm drinking whisky like water Cause water does nothing for me I'm full of pain I need it more I'm as empty as the whisky bottle on my floor This is the end I don't need this anymore Taking control Is finding strength to let it go I'm drinking whisky like water Cause water does nothing for me