I realize in record time I know I can't change You've bent my blood And that's enough I know I can't change But that's why I need you to know It's wild and cured I still hear you Up in my room You echo up the stairs You claw the door And leave a mark And then you're not there But that's why I need you to know I'm trying It's wild but they found a cure Hold your hand On my head You can watch me hold the bed And I'll pretend to me asleep You may claim me your gold But I'm not yours to have or hold You take all that's left of me But that's why I need you to know I'm trying It's wild but they found a cure In a plume of smoke A family ghost Shows me all her teeth The brightest white Like heaven's light Planting all its seeds I am walking through our home