Scout - Diffrntly Pt.2 lyrics

You say it doesn't matter but it does though Tryna keep it together but it's real slow I'm surrounded by people that I don't know Ima step back from this fake show Cause I'm so tired and I don't know How to wake up from this night Fair flow That is my life That's how I feel though I can not react I can not feel whole I can sleep but I wake up slow Wishin' I could stay asleep and let it all go I don't care anymore I really don't know How this happened I was fine a couple months ago I don't want this She seems fine though A sad script I shoulda said no People movin up I don't wanna grow Ima make it stop on my own folk She's still on the block I'm over here counting ticks on the clock Wonderin to myself why I tried so hard to stop When I knew that I was done when I let the words drop I love you I said it You were layin in my arms The truest thing I ever said And no attempt to charm I will never take it back You the girl that I dream about When I let my guard down Only then do I start to shout And I fall to the floor because you're over it And this song that I write it's for a nameless fear I'm probably scarin you away pushin you to split Cause I'm weak and I'm scared because I didn't commit