Scott Roley - To Keep Me Struggling On lyrics

Oh can't you see that this is something I must try and do alone I cannot rearrange the chemistry that so freely flows The conquest finds me fearful Perhaps behind me lays my satisfaction What I really want to know Is am I getting closer to you? Or am I drifting far away With the changing of each season? Is there any promised land outside of each and every day? Where is it I'm going to and when I get there can I stay? The sunset leaves me worried and all through the night I lay Keeping up hope That somehow the light will find a way back just for me So I can write about confusion and my fantasy So I can cry about the hatred and the fallacies That keeps me struggling on For I am like a wild mountain flower that has finally died My fragrance lingers if you'll stop and take the time A pa**ion not to change your dreams But to keep them all from finally going under What I really want to say Is any of this getting to you? Or am I crying out on deaf ears While within me boils the thunder Of a pure love that is so freely given away Does it make you want to run or does the power force you to stay? I am destined not to please this crowd with truth I can't betray Keeping up hope That somehow the light will find a way back just for you So I can write about the answer with a question or two So I can smile about the reason why I do what I must do To keep me struggling on Lord you keep me struggling on