Scott Garriott - Visions of What Could Have Been lyrics

I got up this morning with a case of heartbreak There's sounds in the next room that kept me awake the chainholder kept his lock on you tight As you continue onbound by him through the night I walked through the muck and stepped into the rain Visions of what could have been drive me insane Your cruel spell cast by words misspoken Left someone cold, tempted, and heartbroken. My spiderweb locked so firm round your wrist as your chain holder crushes the spider with a fist The beautiful vixen was hiding her gun Visions of what could've been make me want to run The benchwarming lion tries hard to accept But his heart jumps two feet from some kind of neglect Your selfishness heals his acceptance and joy But feels not so bad about being your toy It all feels so thrilling so pretty and wild Visions of what could've been make me feel like a child The d**h juggling doctor heard something so sick That it numbed all the pain with some kind of trick Now there's really nothing much more to be done But love my own heartbreak and try to have fun And sometimes its fun to live in a mess And visions of what could have been should be repressed My fantasies and love are all mine alone Nothing for no one to hate or condone We live in the present; love comes from within But you treat my feelings like you don't know where they've been Living in a shipwreck in a lifetime of storms Visions of what could've been keep me so warm The wise old professor he knew everything The singer learned lyrics but never did sing Now that were all crazy; nothing really much matters Not internal pride, nor your external flatter The bitter reality cuts through like a knife And visions of what could've been are changing my life