Scissorkiss - Ledgerbook lyrics

Wake up and my heart is sinking, just another day of thinking All the things I could have done I didn't do for you All the help I never gave you, all I did that didn't save you All the little careful words that could have pulled you through This place is haunted by the silences that grow When I'm hiding from your rage and all the things you claim to know About my coldness and my cruelty and my failures as a friend I keep my silence, keep my distance, keep my hopes of staying innocent Oh my dear was I so wrong (The shadow in your life, the hand that holds the knife) I tried so hard to be strong (The darkness keeps you down, the failure's in here somewhere) Oh my dear was I so wrong I can't stay here for much longer Every day I feel you waiting, accidents accumulating Slips and slights and oversights, more fuel to the fire Write it in your ledgerbook, every chance I never took To keep the walls between from growing higher, higher, higher, higher... The shadow in your life The hand that holds the knife The darkness keeps you down The failure's in here somewhere Oh my dear was I so wrong (The shadow in your life, the hand that holds the knife) I tried so hard to be strong (The darkness keeps you down, the failure's in here somewhere) Oh my dear was I so wrong I can't stay here for much longer Will you miss me now I'm gone? Will you miss me now I'm gone? Will you miss me now I'm gone? The shadow in your life The hand that holds the knife The darkness keeps you down The failure here isn't me The failure here isn't me The failure here isn't me The failure here isn't me