i am nothing i feel nothing that's why i hurt you my hearts blacker than black now that's why i hurt you you deserve so much better that's why i hurt you i hate myself that's why i hurt you i am starting to feel sick it's hard for me to breathe i wish that i could laugh so please help me conceive all that's happened is too hard to believe so much confusion please help me breathe i am here to cause pain that's why i hurt you i feed off of my own that's why i hurt i am a selfish f** that's why i hurt you i had to go away that's why i hurt my chest has caved in salt's burning my eyes curled up in a fetal position i despise this moment i despise