Scatterbrained Atheists - How the world ends, Part III lyrics

When The world is ending, don't want to feel a thing This is how the world ends, don't want to think a thing When my world is ending, can't stop remembering This is how the world ends, Can't stop obsessing When my world is ending, I'm sorry for everything When my world is ending ending and that's ok with me When you were young I remember when I was 17, and wanting nothing to do but site and watch while my whist bleed and my hands, I wanted to be dead When I was young, You never showed me, how to be, I never knew what it was like to have a family I remember when I was 15 and saw my first girlfriend cheating on me with my best friend while I slept on the floor and she on the bed 000 13 and not wanting to feel anything, nobody knew me, no body knew the pain The only weirdo in my neighborhood, that understood the way the forces works, beyond the socials confines of an adolescent world I remembering when I was 12 and moving Away from everything I knew and loved At the same time Left abandoned I remember feeling that dark sinking feeling, day out and day in Wanting the world to end When no one knew you or cared If you were ever there When I turned to 11, I stopped dreaming of heaven I knew that there was no place that I could go and feel ok No matter what you said it didn't change the things you did when we were kids I f**ing hate you forever for that sh** I remember when I was 8 and no one could relate to a lost boy In a cold world All I need was for someone to say the right words When I was 6, I remember pretending to be 0sick so I could stay home And when I was there alone I used to fantasize about the day I died Cause At your funeral Everyone has to show How much they loved you How much they miss you But they couldn't do that for you When you were alive that's why you try To k** myself when I was 4 years old I locked myself inside the car until I couldn't breathes no more I wanted the sun to burn out my brain I wanted them all to know my pain I wanted them to know how much it hurt for me to be disregarded by my family I wanted to leave to prove a point I wanted to leave to live out that dream I wanted to leave to prove that I'm free 3 years old, not knowing where to go, no one around me, left my mind starving. i I remember wondering, what life would be like if I could do anything , but my whole life I was told I was nothing Couldn't do anything, now look at me I'm farther than you could ever be I keep thinking, I keep learning When You gave up, when we were children * This was a way for me to get back at you, to teach all of you a lesson about how you treat your children, I'm lucky I made it to 11