Scamp - The Longing lyrics

am I blind, am I afraid to be everything I've ever dreamed of well I don't even have the guts to see if there's another sad person going down like me I'm standing in a pool of blood and that's despair I f**in' tell you am I fading to infinity or just paralyzed there's no ability you say you don't give a f** what I do with my life but won't you please look back and... won't you wait for me ? won't you wait for an old friend like me ? in time - they say that time can heal you but I'm already behind all dark with a soul to see through a mind to reach and a face to hate too blood in my eyes so I can't cry with you I'm not afraid that they'll see me the wrong choice, but the right solution hard effect that explode in confusion you say you don't give a f** what I do with my life but won't you please look back and... won't you wait for me ? won't you wait for an old friend like me ? desperate times calls for desperate measures and a desperate man that's what I am no love to lean on - no friend to call on no innocence to share at night there's no sleep till peace is found but my anxiety is bringing me down a hard life, but life is hard want to be idolized but I'm not am I alone in here ? am I alone in fear ? all my time I spend waiting on something I'll never be you say you don't give a f** what I do with my life but won't you please look back and... won't you wait for me ? won't you wait for an old friend like me ?