Sometimes I think about who I should believe The people who are dead or the people who are free Sometimes I hear them as they whisper to me I try to stay awake so I don't die in my sleep And I was quick to take a second look through Of the window on the door of the operating room And the adrenaline, it threw my eyes To the table on the floor where the patients lie I saw his face and I could not speak As the anesthetic kissed his cheek I felt my lips go cold and my limbs go weak Because the body on the table where the patients die Was me It was me Give me back my oxygen mask ('cause I don't want to) Feel the walls of my heart collapse (so put me under) I would sooner die on this table (Than face what) Causes me to be so unstable There was a lie between my demons and me And a body made of paper in the pa**enger seat As I open my eyes, I could not see I felt the stitches come loose and the blood run free And as my thoughts began to shake I felt the hand of the darkness kiss my face And the devil woke up and grabbed my throat He pulled me down to the place where the silence grows He looked at me with hollow eyes And he whispered my name as the flowers died My heart went cold as I sank between The ocean I an and the river I'm meant to be I'm meant to be Give me back my oxygen mask ('cause I don't want to) Feel the walls of my heart collapse (so put me under) I would sooner die on this table (Than face what) Causes me to be so unstable And I'm standing by the window on a Sunday I can't quite recall Why I can not move at all And I feel so tired and wounded Like the stitches on my soul came undone I'm standing here in the dark Well, maybe it's from the drinks we had last night But good God, I love those friends of mine The best, the alcohol Or maybe it's from the lack of sleep But those secrets I've kept, trying to be sweet to you It's dark, my dear But it got me through Give me back my oxygen mask ('cause I don't want to) Feel the walls of my heart collapse (so put me under) I would sooner die on this table (Than face what) Causes me to be so unstable Causes me to be so unstable Causes me to be so unstable Sometimes I wonder if I'm only a ghost wearing human skin I never chose I listen to the devil as he spoke Because he tempted me with a beautiful rose