Saukrates - Former Self lyrics

I've got a score to settle with my former self Who told me to forfeit cause moving forward is more or less a scorching hell Tried to make me conform to ordinary, knowing I wasn't close to regular But rather special as what never was, a moment you only get once I'd set my scope on a nebula, next second he'd be telling me, "Forget it," Cause I won't get enough thrust, and I'd sweat it But that's just who I was before I knew who I was A few new adjustments, had me clueless as to what I grew from, whod'a thunk? From disrespect through the roof like not knowing when what's due is up To doing what I love, until I loved who I was Earlier times in my life there was stressing combined with strife But now I reminisce with hindsight and recognize blessings in disguise I've got a score to settle with my former self Put my heart into it like selling organs, despite the wretched torture he'd put me through Felt like an orphan getting sonned by never-ending negativity There's no debate just know he hurt me plenty see I never minded haters cause I was my own worst enemy Playing it safe ended up in excessive insecurities Self esteem on empty resulted in being insufficient, lesser steam The little engine that could, didn't, getting on track was prevented Never dreamed, endlessly stressed, hell dwelled within me Or should I say him, couldn't tell you the difference We were pretty much identical as replica's Said he'd do things for me that were never done And so I Got ridiculed, felt miniscule Pitiful, 'till I refused his abuse and lit the fuse that made me pivotal My decision never would be to choose to let him get through to the depth of who I was Turns out his chances were slim as he was shallow, so he dipped like a pool Still got a score to settle with my former self I'm sure he'd guessed he'd reign/rain over me, and my parade, as my tears poured while I'd get drenched Acted full of himself with his tank on empty, last to merit, rather than last to merit Getting ahead of himself, running his mouth before he ran his errands Every now and then we have a run-in Tries to make comparisons to others As if it matters but it doesn't So I've got to be careful of my judgment Cause that's exactly what I've done to him...