I curse the string that stole my breath and just a year ago I nearly burned to d**h I try to clear my mind I try to ignore all the ways this reminds me of the last time a handful of pills or so is all that it takes I know if you pour me a gla** of rum I'll crush a cigarette out before I'm done bright lights choke me and who are you to make me bleed I'm fragmenting apart I hate the way you stare through me I came to and caught my breath charcoal on my lips the only memory left I'm falling down inside from screams raging through my mind just promise me this will be the last time