How can someone who wants to be loved Hate it when they're loved at all? Does guilt really feel that bad? Every time I take a breath, honey I feel the weight fall back on me Somebody tell me it's not so bad Collected thoughts drown in sleep I had forgotten what you mean to me I forgot a lot of things What happens to the old girl, what happens to the boy? I see their eyelids moving What happens to the old boy, will he be destroyed? Is this what I'm losing? But I feel, feel But I feel something, oh it's better than nothing I've been sleeping in his bed I'm digging in my head He pulls the cash from under the table Take that breath and hold it in Oh it's sidling in, he says It's not so bad Collected thoughts drown in sleep I had forgotten what you mean to me I forgot a lot of things What happens to the old girl, what happens to the boy? I see their eyelids moving What happens to the old boy, will he be destroyed? Is this what I'm losing? But I feel, feel But I feel something, oh it's better than nothing