I've been smoking my mother's brand of cigarettes because I hate myself to d**h I burnt a hole through my brain trying to remember not to do this again. I take what they tell me to feel like myself, but I'm not so sure of when I became someone else Nobody notices chapped lips and headaches so I don't get up most days. Sometimes you can't get over what you're going through If I feel like nothing, eventually I will feel nothing at all