Sara Haze - The Big Lie lyrics

I have a secret It's haunting me Sometimes I wanna tell you I'm not what I seem It breaks my heart When I look in your eyes You see me smile But I'm alone inside Happiness depends on The silence I keep I know that I should tell you But can't bring myself to speak I'm so disguised I don't know what's true It k**s me when I see what it does to you It's a big big lie You're about to see through And I don't why It's all I can do It's a big big lie I'm hiding from you I don't love myself So how can I love you I toss and turn Yeah I can't sleep Why am I so lonely You're right next to me It's building up inside me I can hardly breath You're lying there so peaceful I just wanna scream It's a big big lie You're about to see through And I don't why It's all I can do It's a big big lie I'm hiding from you I don't love myself So how can I love you How can I love you I keep thinking that you're gonna hear it In the words that I don't say Someone tell me how long oh how long Can I live my life this way You're about to see through I don't know why But all I can do Is lie I don't know why It's all I can do It's a big big lie I'm hiding from you I don't love myself yet So how can I love you How can I love you How can I love you