Let's just imagine I'm going to become a escort tonight. I would sh** on my pants in fear, But just in my mind, honestly. That is disgusting. Sex is disgusting. Any escort would disgust me. “Furcia” is its translation in spanish And it sounds very pretty. The meaning sh**s on the word. Let's just imagine they kidnapped me. I told my bestfriend where I'll be. Let's imagine her getting k**ed by a procurer. That'd be quite fun. I'm f**ed. That idea is disgusting, too. Today, I had a dream about escorts Where the procurer looked like a wrestling fighter. It scared me. If I was really planning to become a escort tonight, I'd probably get k**ed and wouldn't have to write a suicide note. Im glad. Writing a suicide note is stupid. If I was sold to people in another country, this would be the last memoir I'd post, Which would be embarra**ing, really. I have just imagined the last feeling I'd feel. Embarra**ement k**s already.