Sage Of Six - The Real lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm getting paid everyday That my dreams fade away And it seems I'm okay But I'm feeling astray And adrift from reality And faculty At school Tell my people I'm all that But I a**ure you I'm far from it Top Ten in my cla** They're glad But I don't want it Not like I'm number one And believe me I'm far from it I couldn't make to the top if I tried And I don't want to But the idea of being beaten Is something I can't stomach Why I gotta study Calculus to make money I just want to read and spit fire all summer And I know I have to Keep my grades up to succeed But the better my grades get I just feel dumber It's a bummer My creativity can't be standardized Instead it gets liquidized I know how to solve quadratics Find the limit on functions But I don't know about taxes Or unemployment Or my odds of finding a job College is cool But I know some doctors That work at McDonald's So there's something else They're not teaching us But they're beeseching us To go to college And gain more knowledge But their just preaching to us Look sir I don't want your Sermon Sir I just I want to be certain That my life's good when I close this curtain The story of my life is ending And the Sequel is getting to close To the present And presently The presence of people Has been pernicious to me Because everyone is looking like viscous To me That's just suspicious of me Because society has made us competitors And to move forward We have to defeat each other Even though our goals are so Separate from one another I want to be a writer He wants to be a doctor But the there's only room For one more N**** in the college And any baller from outta state Can probably take our place It makes me shudder I just want to chill With my brothers And be free to do as I please I'll still work for the money But there's lots to learn And I got years to burn So college should be the outlet That my power comes from But to make it to college My power gets blighted So I'm dead inside But the family's excited I'm on the path to success But that path ain't mine They rather have sit at a desk Than to write these rhymes And that's the Real [Verse 2] My confidence has faded away And I imagine myself failing Every single day I'll be just another man In our society Who failed to achieve his dreams And probably struggle with sobriety It's in my blood So why should I try to be different cuz Cause my picture was to Change the world But that image swirled Because With myself I quarreled I'm too lazy To do what it takes to achieve my goals I used to be driven and determined To boost my attributes Because my attitude Said my aptitude Was infinite And that was absolute Until Recently I got tire of competing And beating Or losing to people I'm not trying to battle with I'm tired of battling I'm tired of struggling I'm tired of smuggling My true desires Because it's for the wrong reasons That I'm hustling I'm about to f*** my life up Thinking about probability of becoming a writer Or a rapper My dreams have trapped me Now I'm too smart to do what I want I want To find a better way to explain myself I want More knowledge of words to explain myself I want To just stop rapping and talk to yall About how My future Is looking dim Why I condemn Myself for Being way too lazy To work On my sk**s Because in my field Of expertise I am no expert See See this creative s*** Is bliss for me It's ecstasy But in the real world Can I make some extra cheese I just want to do what I love But success is too farfetched It's like painting The perfect picture With an etcher sketch It's hard I bet I hope I don't drop it I hope that when I'm Putting my pen to this paper And my fingers to these keys Sampling beats Making MP3s Spitting out my soul in my homie backseat On snapchat Trying to boost my popularity Writing comic books about Asija Peace The Sage in me Will come and bring My mind to ease As I focus my chakra And build my ki And that's The Real [Verse 3] Seventeen years I've been grinding my whole life Been trying to get in With academics Thinking it'd be nice To become a doctor in science But that I almost failed twice Never made second choices Had to make the first right But the first choice was wrong So now I'm writing songs That no one Will sing along to I feel blue I feel sick like flu Down on my luck bro I'm stuck like glue Wish I was more like you You can do whatever you put your mind to But I'd forget about it Before I even had the time to And now I'm taking college cla**es Trying to get a grip on life But as soon as I arrive I feel I cannot survive I used to feel alive Like Back when I was five A few years later I just could not thrive Like I used to In school and out of school I used to be the man Then Out of school I couldn't hang Cause I had to be the man In school Now In school And out of school I've just become a sham I'll Let the most important things Slip right between my hands I'm Not Worth S*** anymore And you could s*** on my grave I'm nothing but a knave Like I've become a slave to Loosing it all just to ball for pretend Loosen for fake friends And making more ends Should be building a future But I make amends To the things that'll just bring me down in the end Why can't I Do what I know I need to survive I make things harder on myself Getting further and further Away from wealth But should I yell Should I try to find some help Or should I try to help myself They say the s*** don't stink Man even my bull I smelled And still managed to let my head swell They say try not to dwell On the past so much I still worry about the past Past the past few months Several years could pa** And you'd still hear grunts About some Bulls*** that I just made up When really I'm pissed at myself And the frustration That I have will amount into laziness My alias Is a hard working brother with a dream Really I'm just a lazy N**** with a team That might lift me up When I'm down in dust When I'm all bust up They could cut my rust But if I could just Think for myself Then maybe I'd learn enough To move to the next step Because I've been missteping Every step that I'm taking I'm staking myself And breaking But faking Like I ain't aching And shaking Every morning I'm waking I'm mourning And flaking Because I've decided that I'm mistaking The path that I'm taking Has been misshapen And I can't shape it I might go ape if I can't shake it Off And that's hard luck n***a