Now I know it ain't right, but I decided I hadta' Us poets paint life, but don't get recognized till afta' So I faked my own d**h just to see what would happen As I taje shallow breaths and wait for people's reaction It was funny at first, but I had to hold my laughter...wait Before long I was on display at an open casket wake And I'm the main attraction who draws a crowd. A freak show of sorts Good thing my skin is pale enough to pa** as a decomposing corpse Frozen in my thoughts, laying stiff...playing with People's emotions and awaiting a kiss from praying lips that I hate but miss. She didn't show...although she sent a card with flowers How considerate. That little b**h would make me sit in my car for hours Heartless powers start to devour my patience...it gets me violent I'm ready to fly sh** and end everything like "I QUIT!" Then again I sit d**hly quiet...biting my tongue Just excited that some kids...who were invited to come did I'm the center of attention...the talk of the town It ain't all that profound, but on this special day of mine I'm the one the universe revolves around It's like a birthday...kind of. I also found that it's the worst way to find love. White doves battle black crows in one of the back rows And everybody my a** knows back home is sporting black clothes Looking glum as usual...it's all too familiar I put the fun back into funeral. My morbid humor'll k** ya' For all that it's worth...the people who I thought were jerks Were putting on the water works and it sorta hurts My momma stroked my hair with so much care but hardly spoke Now my heart is broke, and yeah...I should've let her in on the joke But I'm honestly choked up, and I'm stuck holding back my tears As I absorb the atmosphere, "I wanna turn back I'm scared!" Then a hand touches my shoulder to calm my nerves And something odd occurs because I heard my father's words So I got disturbed...as he expressed what he's never said What bothered me the most is that I remembered...he's dead I manifested destiny. The best and worst of worlds has come true As I'm buried alive, in the back of my mind echoes his words: "I love you."