Sadistik - Searching For Some Beautiful lyrics

(Verse 1 - Sadistik) My head aches, and feels the blunt vice grips hanging over my tequila sunrises Confide and write this to de-scribe a love life that's feeling love lifeless I'm the type that'll cherish frozen winters stare at snowy blizzards and take it to heart Then break it apart, I carry hopes and blisters Cutting heart strings with a pair of broken scissors I'm still trapped in a middle school slow dance Stepping on toes in a mistletoe romance Misanthrope, discomposed who holds hands with grief...Kissing hope with no chance, but me I'm just searching for some beautiful a dream that I can catch And a person who's unusual When I find her, I'll try to face the tide Fight the hurricane, and tidal wave, goodbye… And I watch all the spectrums of angels Choking to d**h on the septums and halos Bread crumbs and fables, why change? I hang at the ends of the pay phone With no change or number to reach What blankets the sky I slumber beneath Under the speech, this song's about hope, joy, love and defeat All it takes is a peaceful autumn day For you to be happy and me to call it fate Even after a f**ed up childhood, I'm still tryin' To believe in God and grace I try to get a piece of peace and sit and listen infinitely Holdin onto benefits, and isnt it so innocent? We Try to find another time and underline the cynical Its pitiful we run and hide and undermind the innermost When intervals of miserable will find a figure four And force the phyiscal and inner soul to find a bitter form And form another time and place where you can go and be so suitable When all I wanna do is go and search for something beautiful, in me I died once, and I knew that it was suitable I died twice, and I sang it like a musical I died again when I thought that the noose would hold Everything I love in the search for some beautiful (x2)