Sadistik - November lyrics

(Verse 1 - Sadistik) Sometimes, I cant handle the cold Ill break another heart too fragile to hold Love dies, Im standing alone, painting false hopes is a habit Ive grown Come find, why I said I dont love you and instead I was humbled and content with the struggle That you gave me, and said that I was crazy Words became chains and love became safety I saw trust until I lost the view... And then I lost faith in us like I always do I refused, to complement your weakness Through all our ups and downs til I was sea-sick ...Flashbacks I remember so well, we both held In November, when the snow fell But that changed, you were not a friend to me I distorted and soon I lost identity And when we fought and I tried to break the innocence You said lies, and I became a hypocrite You tried to hold the sadness when you grabbed tight (But I moved on from the shadows of our past life) You said you couldn't live if I ran away But part of me died, anyway, when I had to stay In a storm that I saw in groundview And I couldn't find the I (eye), it was all about U (you) (Hook - Sadistik) Year One! I felt the dear sun A brand new hope before the tears come Year two! I see In clear view Ashamed of myself when I am near you Year three! I watch the stars fade Im a zombie whos walking through a heartache Year four! Youre forever away and the sun now shines as my memories fade (Verse 2 - Sadistik) All the feelings I have are hard to word I cant see the problem, my vision starts to blur Into an image of a violent struggle Of a slow suicide since the time I loved you Id, gladly die if youd pacify But you need too many things that I cant provide, so You looked for it inside another's arms Lied through ya teeth and cried that nothings wrong (It didn't stop) all the cryin in public Or telling me Im not the only guy you were f**in! But I gave in to all my fears instead The only thing that ran more than me (were the tears you shed) When you told me you cut inside ya flesh Youre depressed and youd rather die instead I could feel my heart tear to bits (The first time Ive cried ever since my parents split) And I knew, there was no you and I I kissed you goodbye, it felt like suicide Ob a bond that was made to sever When I turned my back on you and wouldn't face the weather And for a moment, it felt like nothing mattered Theres givers and theres takers, and youre just the latter I needed help but I got a struggle When I fell to pieces you couldn't solve the puzzle (We wept in puddles) til we were lost at sea (With regretful struggles) and a faded promise ring Your hands were full cuz you seemed to hold grudges While I chased both of our dreams through rosebushes, in November (Hook - Sadistik) Year One! I felt the dear sun A brand new hope before the tears come Year two! I see In clear view Ashamed of myself when I am near you Year three! I watch the stars fade Im a zombie whos walking through a heartache Year four! Youre forever away and the sun now shines as my memories fade (Verse 3 - Sadistik) I couldn't think to hold a single hope So I pressed on my luck until my fingers broke Im treading steps through quicksand of past love To find closure from ice shoulders and hands touch And my mind is still plagued with the fragrances Of pain and bliss, and razorblades you made me grip When Id watch ya face with teary eyes And I had to cut myself so I could feel alive, but I found a place where the weather is much better now In greener pastures, where the rain is never out And ya face is replaced by another November's leaves stay, but have changed for the summer (and my) hope meddles (where I) go settle In the line that blurs from love to rose petals And the silence hurt, so I just followed through On a beaten street, never reaching peaks which I saw in you And now I see that you just took me for granted Had a diamond in the rough and you still took me for granite Cuz in November we gazed at sea scapes With each wave, symbolizing things that wed make Love and war we were born as keepsakes To underscore loves accord when peace breaks, In November