S.O. - Lamentations (feat. Leah Smith) lyrics

Pops told me that no is no and slow your roll young so and so, that's the lesson that I'm getting from a brave man/now his bodies in a grave how low is low you get the message I ain't messing when I say fam/ He died so every night that I cried waking up with wet sheets as tears fall from my eyes/ Mother getting less sleep I'm near to my demise/ Its clear it gets deep this caught us by surprise in a minute/ Went from wife to widow in an instant do you get it/ Hear my plight his pictures is a witness/ Trying to scrimmage for hope hearing the minister quote/ My mind's feeling so sinister diminished and broke/oh my who can administer real life I never would have thought I would know what this feel like, this feel like/ Darkness all over me, like its all over feeling hopeless whose holding me hope is bleak… Lord, though you slay me, I will rejoice/ Weak and weary but my body is Yours/ I hope You hear me these tears are my voice/ I see You clearly like I didn't before/ You give and You take away but by Your grace I know that You make a wayMy sister crying she falling down on that work floor, uncle wondering what its all for/watch em as they all mourn/ Dark storm brewing and what hurts more is all the flashes in my head/ Trying to work out what had happened coz his dead/ Saw his body just laying in a coffin it was spread/ It really got me it cut me so abruptly and it led/to me being so flippant not wishing to live/ How could I get so distant I wanna be hid/ I am one of his kids who is fatherless/how do you prepare for this moment whose got the starter kit/ Any second wishing and hoping he'll come charging in/wrap me in his arms and tell me son it was all a myth/ But that's the furthest from the truth the bearers of the news/came to my home and they showed me all the proof/ And I really was bemused wondering why God would take him and leave me saddened and confused… Man I really wanna trust in the Lord yo/ And as it stands know my God has got a plan, demand nothing and also/ I'm feeling like poor Job, my reprimand is never trusting in man but God's sovereign of all souls/ Including my father's and so I rest in and try to invest in, deny and reject sin/ I'm trusting in the words of the Lord blessed are people who mourn sons and daughters we are blessed kin/them sleepless nights yeah I was wrestling/satan's deception made blatant impressions/ Had me wondering and why questioning why/ Now I'm wandering not trusting in the Saviour who died/ God is sovereign and I know it, grants hope the hopeless/ The Father to the fatherless has grace for the chosen/wipes tears and I know it/keep me sane each moment/ Grant joy coz I no longer wanna be groaning I cry